Thanks Jeff
your sweet..thank you all...and NO I will not find a guy that way lol....its time for me to take a break from boys! I need to find 'me' again before I get invovled in another relationship...and this time, perhaps i'll see if I can't find someone that won't 'lose themselves' in trying to help me thru my health worries lol (sense a bit of bitterness?...eh I can't fault him..