[Cheers]

Don't get me wrong...I am relieved that the appt is finally here. As I have said before...my goal after tomorrow is to leave there with a new outlook. If he tells me to stop worrying...these won't hurt me...then I will fully concentrate on fixing my thoughts through therapy and other means necessary. If he agrees with the electrophysiologist and tells me I need the ablation, well, then it will be time to seriously consider that route. Of course, I am hoping for the first option.

I didn't get my holter results today, but I am picking them up in the morning on the way to the appt. which is at 10:45.

I am hoping and praying this appt brings me much reassurance. I am hoping he doesn't see anything new or dangerous that hasnt been seen in the past. I am hoping I dont get this holter back and find out I am throwing thousands of PACs a day. I am hoping this mostly comes down to a mental issue - because I know I can deal with that. I am hoping that if I do have to have an ablation, I will find the strength to get through that intense fear.

I really want to walk out of that office and have a nice lunch with my mom and husband and move on with my life. This insane anxiety has been at bay for a LONG time. This past week has been extremely hard with it coming back full force. I cannot live this way. Yesterday I felt better as I know I am getting my period. But today they started coming back again. I HAVE to be able to deal with it.

This is a cardiologist I am going to...not an electrophysiologist. So, there is a chance I could walk out of there with no further info or suggestions. Maybe he will just tell me to see another electrophysiologist. I have to be prepared for disappointment. But I seriously hope that is not the case.

Thanks for listening. It really helps.

[dr461]

I think that the cardio doc will say that you have benign PVCs, and that you can live nicely and normally with them. An ablation still seems awfully drastic in your case, unless it is really a necessity. You have to weight what all the doctors say, and then make an intelligent decision.

[Cheers]

I sure do hope you are right David. I sure do.

Thanks

[DaniRae]

I agree with David but PLEASE don't leave us hanging and let us know how it goes

[Katie]

My advice- don't look at ur medical records. Keep them sealed and let ur doctor see what's going on. If you look and see thousands of this or that it'll make it worse, because ur not the doctor and you don't know what's normal. He may see people with thousands and not worry about it- let him worry if somethings wrong- and if there us something wrong let him give u his opinion and if it differs from the electrophysiologist seek a third to see who wins! I suggest you find a doctor though u can truly trust. Let us know asap what happens. I'll be rooting for you.

[Susie]

Please let us know how it goes. It is always so good to be reassured.

[Cheers]

Thank you all so much. You can be certain I will be on asap when I get home (appt is about a half hour away).

[Susie]

My thoughts and prayers are with you.