[CMoore416]

How do you stop thinking about them??

I think about them all the time! When I wake up I think that they are coming, or of they aren't I think "I'm not feeling them rig now but when will I? It's horrible and actually making me crazy. I went back to bed this morning crying and just let it all out but seriously I can't go back to bed everyday! I just don't know how I am going to get my mind elsewhere. It's like it has consumed my mind. Of course I manage to get through the day and sometimes focus on other things but the heart is never far away from my thoughts. Sucks big time

[jkfrench]

Did you read those books yet by Claire Weeks? It isn't about fighting the thoughts, it is about learning to accept and float past the thoughts. Sounds silly, but it works!

[Katie]

I think about my heart constantly too but try to only focus on the positive thoughts rather than the freak out thoughts. I really believe it's just practice practice practice.

[DaniRae]

I focus on mine too. LOTS. I think its natural for those of us to tend to worry, to always have our hearts in the back of our minds. Some days we can go hours without thinking about it but one thump or odd feeling and BAM we are back to concentrating on it. I do think though Christina, you going back to work a bit will help, it makes you take your mind off of things

[dr461]

Originally Posted by jkfrench

Did you read those books yet by Claire Weeks? It isn't about fighting the thoughts, it is about learning to accept and float past the thoughts. Sounds silly, but it works!

Exactly. Christina, you have to learn to program your mind to think backwards from worst case scenario. You can't leave it stuck in the tragic all the time. This is why I strongly suggest CBT, as it works on doing exactly that.

[CMoore416]

Yes been reading those books. Just having a tough time. Plus the stress has caused so many other symptoms. I swear me eyes are always feeling weird (like twitches and spasms and just weird feelings) that I swear are just from months of stress!

[Katie]

Stress and sleepiness and maybe magnesium deficiency? Do u get ALOT of other muscle cramping too

[CMoore416]

No not any other muscle cramping. I take magnesium too.

I'm getting ready go in to get hair done and of course PVCs just started. Of course....just to tease me and make me want to not go in. Chest kind of hurting too. Ugh hate this!!

[dr461]

Originally Posted by CMoore416

No not any other muscle cramping. I take magnesium too.

I'm getting ready go in to get hair done and of course PVCs just started. Of course....just to tease me and make me want to not go in. Chest kind of hurting too. Ugh hate this!!

Get your hair done, and look beautiful. The heck with the PVCs--you wanna look hot.

[CMoore416]

I know I whine this al, the time - but I'm just not sure I fight this anymore. I'm not suicidal - and I know I have no choice but to fight but mentally - I'm done. I live in constant fear and I'm on 3 hours right now of skips - even clusters of every other beat and I'm always feeling like I need to go the Dr because I can't reassure myself anymore after this long. First fee minutes I can but 3 hours? I start to have major doubts I'm ok and I just cry. This is more than I can handle. I'm just not strong enough. I just don't know what to do anymore. Nothing seems to help