[CMoore416]

Just posting here since it gets my mid off myself for a few. Feeling very panicky. Leaving in a few for my therapist appt ironically lol imknownhormones playing a huge factor this am. Feeling very lightheaded which I'm sure is panic and making panic worse. Woke up with PVCs which started it but I am supposed to start my monthly cycle today! Today is my sons birthday and I don't want to feel this way today! Why can't I just have one normal day....anyone ever feel like they're being punished for something???!!aaaarrrggghh!

Thanks for letting me always vent! I have no one else to understand.

[Cheers]

I can feel your depression through your words. I know how hard this is and I am so sorry. I think you will feel better after your appt. I know I always do. I wish it lasted longer...but typically right after, I feel a weight lifted. My period if due today too and my PACs are already better. I really hope you get some relief today. I will be sending you good vibes.

[DaniRae]

I often wondered "why Me" and asked what I did to deserve this. But you have to change your way of thinking... Think of it as "thank God I don't have cancer or a serious heart problem" Thank God my kids are healthy and strong, thank God I have a house and a home, thank God I am loved. etc....

I know it's hard to do but it will help you once you can retrain your brain. It took me awhile too and I still have my ups and downs. I am still a hypochondriac at heart and daily I fight things off. But you can do it

[dr461]

Christina, you will be okay. Hang in there and think positive thoughts. The panic will subside. I am in the same exact boat as Dani--under control, after fighting hard to get there. it isn't easy,but we have been where you are and we love you!!!

For humor and to release tension: IT really does suck a big one to feel that way, and it is really shit city. Relax and try to feel better.

[CMoore416]

Therapist cancelled since she is ick. Took a Lille doze on couch. Not what I wanted to do but helped some. Going to try and get out and get my sons On my way! Goodies. Hoping that helps.

I know what I need to do - I just can't get it to work. I just keep getting depressed over it. I'm just tired of fighting "things"

Thanks for all the support

[dr461]

Originally Posted by CMoore416

Therapist cancelled since she is ick. Took a Lille doze on couch. Not what I wanted to do but helped some. Going to try and get out and get my sons On my way! Goodies. Hoping that helps.

I know what I need to do - I just can't get it to work. I just keep getting depressed over it. I'm just tired of fighting "things"

Thanks for all the support

KEEP fighting, sweetie. You are worth it, and your sanity is worth it--you can do it!!!!

[CMoore416]

Thanks David. I did get out and get my son some last minute birthday goodies. I felt better although they popped back up a few minutes ago. But doing ok. I know I can beat this! I've beat so much my whole life! I guess I just am tired of having things to "beat!" but thanks so much for all the support!! And sorry for all my weird typos!

[CMoore416]

Hd a much better day until tonight. I had a little PSAT with my son who refused to talk to me or say goodnight - on his birthday after I did so much for much for him. so I had a crying fit a pond of course kicked in my PVCs into overdrive!!! Now trying to calm down but also fight off panic the of the PVCs!!

[Susie]

Awwww, I am sorry you are having so much depression and anxiety, how are you doing today.

[CMoore416]

I had PVCs as soon as I woke up so I went back to bed - which I hate that I do. I have never done that until now. Rest of the day went ok

How are you Susie?