[CMoore416]

I was just thinking sadly how 6 months ago I wasn't thInking about my heart constantly. Now it's the only thing I think about. Before I get out of bed I'm telling myself some positive ways to think about the day in relation to my heart, I'm praying for a skip free day and then the rest of the day I'm so heart aware and barely do anything for fear of causing skips. I have been in vacation from work and kids home and thought it would help but it's actually been worse. I wonder if hypnosis would work since my therapist does hypnosis. I just Miss those days SO BAD! I miss miss miss it. I want to get up and just not think about it. I feel captive by this and tortured by my own mind. How sad....

[Jeff]

Maybe you should modify your prayer. Your heart skips sometimes. So what? Mine does, too. Turns out that's normal. Not the normal you're used to, but normal nonetheless. Maybe your prayer should be to accept your new normal. And know that your new normal not prevent your from any activities. I just ran six miles about an hour ago on some icy roads - the air was crisp and it felt oh so good to push myself up all the hills here. And gf? (bobs head side to side while waggling finger) I haz it worse than you do. And I'm nothing special. If I can do this? You can do it.

What helped me? To stop praying for a skip free day, and instead pray for or work toward acceptance.

Now please - after having read this, tell me what you're going to DO about your issue. Are you going to wad up all fetal and give up on your life, or do you want to get your life back? To do that you have to be willing to take a risk. Are you willing?

Inaction and fear will not help you. I mean literally, right? What has inaction and fear done for you so far? Are you in a better place now than you were 6 months ago?

Action and courage will help you. Start with small doses of both and work your way to bigger and better from there.

[Diana]

Originally Posted by CMoore416

I was just thinking sadly how 6 months ago I wasn't thInking about my heart constantly. Now it's the only thing I think about. Before I get out of bed I'm telling myself some positive ways to think about the day in relation to my heart, I'm praying for a skip free day and then the rest of the day I'm so heart aware and barely do anything for fear of causing skips. I have been in vacation from work and kids home and thought it would help but it's actually been worse. I wonder if hypnosis would work since my therapist does hypnosis. I just Miss those days SO BAD! I miss miss miss it. I want to get up and just not think about it. I feel captive by this and tortured by my own mind. How sad....

I know exactly where your comning from I use do the same now i go with it.I find that if i worrie all the time which i did in the past it made me a prisoner of those. and i have had these sinse 1985. so now when they get really bad i just say if this is it for me so be it..its in the lords hands..it took many of years of these darn things to get me where i am today..but they use to pretty much determined my day but not anymore.im not saying they dont get to me at times but not anything like before.you have them and most likely always will.SO GIVE IT TO THE LORD.

[CMoore416]

I do pray for acceptance. I know He is in control and I pray for peace and do many other things. I wish I could just get my mind off it for just a short bit. I'm cleaning up all the Christmas stuff right now and just moving around the house has then triggered. I just don't know what happened to me...

[Jeff]

But all of your posts have to do with praying for a skip free day, a skip free weekend, etc. Stop praying for that. Stop hoping for that. The heart you have? It skips sometimes. And that's ok.

By DOING things I mean getting out. Exercising. Going for a brisk walk. In the short term? It'll make them worse. But you'll survive. And the more you get out, work out the stress, exercise, the more they'll fade. But you have to be willing to take that risk. Willing to face your fear of dropping dead at any moment and taking part in some activity anyway. Right now I think you'll agree that you aren't facing that fear. And I'm not judging you for that - I went through a spell when I didn't face that fear, either. And Jodie reminded me of that recently. But eventually, with cell phone pre-dialed to 911, thumb on the SEND key, I went out for a walk.

Then I went out for a slightly longer walk. In a month, I was jogging. And again, I'm not special. You can do this. You just haven't hit rock bottom yet. Your back isn't against the wall enough yet. You aren't at that point when you literally look up to the heavens and scream "TAKE ME ALREADY, EMMER EFFER, OR LEAVE ME THE EFF ALONE!!"

But you will. And then you'll climb out.

[Susie]

Wow, these posts have helped me too. I need to get on with my life, to pray for acceptance, not to get rid of them, as my doctor said, for me, these are "normal", I have to get that in my thick skull. I have to learn acceptance for things I can not change. I tell you, facing fear, for me, is very hard, but, I will do it.

Jeff, that is good to know that at first my skips may get a little worse when I do things I am afraid of, that gives me courage.

This group is the greatest, when you help one, it invariably helps others as well.

God bless
Susie

[CMoore416]

Oh I totally know your right. I haven't been able to face the dear. I can't seem to get over the reality of it being normal. I'm stuck in the why me, I want my old life back and this doesn't feel normal or ok at all!! I'm still in my pity party. I don't want acceptance of them. I want them to go away and give me my old self back!! I know that's too bad though lol and sounds like a baby tantrum!

But yes your compeletly right and I need to do it. Just struggling in that part.

[Chaoticdopey]

oh ive had those feeling s to. if my sister wanted me to pick her up which im in LA and shes in anaheim which is over an hour drive. i have my mom on speed dial ready to be called. 911 is number 2 on my list lol. my mom seems to help me when my mind runs away with my heart

[CMoore416]

Yeah I've been avoiding lots of things and places which blows! I told my mom i feel like sprinting down the street screaming at the top of my lungs!!

[CMoore416]

I also am thinking there is a crazy hormonal connection. After I ovulate - I have been getting them so bad and my cycles are getting shorter. So I'm thinking a hormonal perimenopause (gasp) connection? Whatever it is...please show your way out the door!!!