Old problems returning, very upset.
Well, I was doing so well with not having any skips and I was starting to not be afraid of the ones I did feel. Well, tonight, I had some scary episodes, and I am almost in tears again. Let me tell you how this happened.
I have a dear boyfriend in New Zealand, and we are getting closer and closer, in fact, he is starting to talk about marriage, which I am all in favor of, we have so much in common. Anyway, we were talking tonight, via a web-cam face to face, we do that alot. I felt a weird flutter and then a long pause, then another flutter. It scared the be-jeepers out of me. I got real hot and burning in my face during and after, this added to my fear. I tried to keep talking and ignore it, but, it seemed like the more I ignored it, the more I thought I could feel other skips starting, which I didn't, just one or two in my throat or tummy. Well, I did not hang up, but, wanted to, I was so scared, but, he did not know it, he would have been concerned if he had as I have told him about these, he is very sympathetic. We talked about 2 hours about all kinds of things, I did OK, but, I must admit, I could sort of feel those "skips" trying to start. I hate this.
It seems to me, the ones I am feeling now are worse then the ones I had when wearing the monitor, I wish I still had it, I bet now, it would show something. I am scared and want to cry again.
Could some of the skips be due to extra adrenalin due to excitement over talking to him and talking about marriage? Should I run to the ER? I will see my doctor this Tuesday regarding the 7 day monitor results.
I am so upset, I was starting to feel so much better, now, I feel like I am going backwards and getting worse again. I really though that my mag glycinate, taurine and arginine had wiped it, now, I am not too sure.
Damn, now what.
Hugs
Susie
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