[CMoore416]

Im really just tired of struggling. Had therapy appt this morning. Went ok. My therapist thinks I need to just sit when the PVCs start and just face them and quit fighting them. I'm just having a huge hard time accepting them. I just can't wrap my mind around at these are part of my life. I mean I know they are - but I don't want them. I just want to live a normal life with no fear. I went shopping after my appointment and of course they started in. Been having groups of bigenemy and that freaks me out! Just so many different patterns and beats and damn I'm just over it! I fell like I don't have anything left to fight this. I know I do and I will as I always do - but just feeling scared right now as usual!

My therapist still thinks it's all related to anxiety.

[jkfrench]

Hi Christina,
I have been in your place many times. It is so hard because we really do want to enjoy our life and so we go out and push forward. But, those skips happen anytime and anywhere and it can just beat you down. Although I have been dealing with this for 20 years, I still get worried when I am out alone and start feeling flutters. It just happened on Sunday. I just try to remember that nothing bad will come of this. Our hearts won't stop. It just is not that easy for them to give out. I can't remember there are so many posts. Did you try a beta blocker? I really believe that it helps me.

[silent]

Hi Christina,
I feel your pain. I am in the same place in life you are. I just want a normal life, free of fear.
I have lately found comfort in knowing that all of you are here going through what I am going through, fighting the very same battles......and we all care very much about each other something that is kinda rare these days,for complete strangers to care about what is happening in your life.....I feel like I'm part of some very exclusive club or something lol. I really hope your day gets better

[CMoore416]

Thanks! Yes I'm sad you all suffer too! I don't know why it's so hard for me to ignore them or focus on something else. It totally consumes me!! I mean every beat I feel!! I hate it. I also struggle because besides you all - I'm so alone in my battles. My husband has pretty much emotionally closed himself off. I guess Im just too emotional. It would be so nice to have comfort when you need it...but sometimes we have to fight alone. I guess we can only help and change ourselves anyway. I have been through many battles but none this hard! Never have I thought I can't win! But sometimes I feel that way. Like it's no use fighting. But maybe I need to stop fighting it....lol maybe that's my Problem! Anyway thanks for understanding! I know you all know why it's like!!

[Cheers]

I am reading the book Overcoming Health Anxiety. Here is the link - Amazon.com: Overcoming Health Anxiety: Letting Go of Your Fear of Illness (9781572248380): Katherine Owens PhD, Martin Antony PhD: Books

It is quite helpful if you actually do the exercises in it. Very CBT based.

The Anxiety and Phobia Workbook is also very helpful. Here is the link - http://www.amazon.com/Anxiety-Phobia...8661808&sr=1-1

There are exercises in that book to. I think that by doing these exercises...you are DOING something about it and it makes a difference.

I highly recommend this as a start.

There is much on the internet about accepting an illness. Some are:

Make a Place for Your Illness - HealingWell.com

Five Stages of Accepting an Illness

Fact just may be that the skips will be with us forever. Maybe not...but we just don't know. We just have no choice but to accept it. Esepcially because we have children.

Have you tried magnesium or a beta blocker?

You need to be proactive. Take steps to improve what you can and learn to let go of what you cannot.

Someone posted about visiting a children's cancer ward. There is so much to be said for that line of thinking. We have so much more that some can and will never imagine having. How dare we waste it.

Volunteering can take us away from ourselves. Helping others can be a huge healer.

You will feel better. It is just a matter of when. I vote for sooner rather than later.

[CMoore416]

Yes I vote for sooner too!

I read the anxiety work ook but gave it way a few years ago. I will look into the overcoming health anxiety one. I'm also going to check out those sites. I knownwhat I NEED to do but man when the skips hit it all goes out the window! Lol

[jkfrench]

Yes when they hit it does set us back, but I think the real key is controlling the anxiety and fear because this reduces the amount to a tolerable level. That is why these books are so important for us. The exercises might not work when the PVCs hit, but the skips will hit less and less as we learn to stop worrying about the "what ifs".

[Katie]

Christina I think i sent you a private message before about what a guy emailed me from Irishhealthboards. I am still willing to send you that info if you'd like it. It has worked for me but I've been reluctant to share it because I don't want anyone to feel like I'm pushing supplements or a lifestyle etc. I might actually post what he said for everyone to read if EVERYONE promises to just read it and take it as one man's story. I think I'll post it tonight.

[jkfrench]

Katie of course you can post it! I look forward to reading it.

[DaniRae]

Christina, my hubby is the same.... As far as he will comfort me to a point then close off. It's because he thinks of it a very different way. He thinks, OK, this is not going to kill you, just watch what you intake and go about life!

To where I think, wow, this sucks, I want it to stop, one day it may kill me....

lol. I don't think they shut themselves off on purpose. I think it's because they look at it a very different way and do not understand why it can upset us so much.