[ctcsmith]

I am just sooo sick of feeling scared all the time!! My heart is all I can think about anymore!! I can't hardly relax at home because I get scared something terrible will happen and I live 45 mins away from a hospital and out in the country so I don't know how long it would take an ambulance to get there!
I am 35 wks pregnant and scared to DEATH I won't see my kids grow up! I have PACs and what I think just figured out was a spurt of 3 beat SVT... I have read sooo many horror stories and researched WAY too much and now I am always afraid the drs are missing something or passing me off since I'm pregnant or cause I'm 26. I have had echo and TONS of ekgs.. I have only felt that spurt twice and it was when I was sleeping and it woke me up! HOW DO I STOP??? I'm at my wits end!!!!

[DaniRae]

Awe sweetie I am so sorry you are having such a hard time. I totally understand but it's going to be about you accepting this. Have you talked to a therapist? I know you are on anti-anxiety meds but maybe they need to be adjusted?

You can always call or text me if you need anything or just to vent, please remember that.

[dr461]

I am sorry that you are having a hard time as well. Try not to focus on your heart--you are OKAY. The more you worry, the more you will get symptoms, so it becomes a vicious cycle. You are fine, and will get to see your children have grandchildren, and be happy. Your symptoms are most likely hormonal--the body chemistry goes crazy during pregnancy. Talk to your doctors for reassurance, and let them monitor you and you shall be okay.

[Katie]

Hang tight. I hope you can get some relief soon. I'd go see your therapist and doctor. It seems like it's all beginning to be too much for you. It is overwhelming and hard to believe that your ok when your heart is bothering you so much, but you have to have faith in those taking care of you that you are fine if they say so after reading your numerous tests. Keep telling yourself I'm ok, and remind yourself that all of us here have gone through the same things- remember how many Jeff was having? I would've been mental I think if I couldn't have used him as a reference point, he got through much worse and survived and you and I and everyone God willing will too! HUGE hugs from afar.

[CMoore416]

I too am so sorry you are dealing with this. I too am struggling horribly. I try but I just can't seem to get into the acceptance part of this. It's completely ruined me. I really hope that you can beat this. Hang in there!

[dr461]

Agree with Katie--go see your therapist and doctor. It isn't worth torturing yourself--you have a right to be happy, and perhaps they can help you with appropriate talk, meds, and whatever you need to be well.

[ctcsmith]

Thanks for all the nice words!! I am currently on a low dose of Zoloft.. but will have to wait till after the baby to increase it!

[Susie]

Originally Posted by ctcsmith

I am just sooo sick of feeling scared all the time!! My heart is all I can think about anymore!! I can't hardly relax at home because I get scared something terrible will happen and I live 45 mins away from a hospital and out in the country so I don't know how long it would take an ambulance to get there!
I am 35 wks pregnant and scared to DEATH I won't see my kids grow up! I have PACs and what I think just figured out was a spurt of 3 beat SVT... I have read sooo many horror stories and researched WAY too much and now I am always afraid the drs are missing something or passing me off since I'm pregnant or cause I'm 26. I have had echo and TONS of ekgs.. I have only felt that spurt twice and it was when I was sleeping and it woke me up! HOW DO I STOP??? I'm at my wits end!!!!

I can sure relate. My heart is all I think about, it is consuming every waking moment. I am petrified all the time. I wish I could stop worrying, but, I can't, my mind is stuck in this rut. I live about 30 minutes from a hospital too, but, there is a clinic behind me, but, I am still scared. I know what I have is benign, but, when I have the "skips" I get so scared, I can not think straight. I have no therapist and can not take meds, they all work opposite on me, what a mess.
I, too, worry that the docs are missing things, even though all tests are great.