[CMoore416]

Katie - I completely agree with you but my mind will not allow me to feel like everything is ok. When you don't feel ok it's hard to accept you are. I tell myself over and over I am fine but the fear grips my body, anxiety gets worse, skips get worse and on and on. I wish it was different. I would give anything to not feel this way. Somedays I do feel like it's too hard to go on it I just keep pushing through. I know I've survived the days before. Like right noe I feel horrible. Chest tight, hard to breathe, skipping away, want to leave work and drove to ER... But it's pointless. I just keep praying fir the strength to beat this. I know my thinking is all wrong I just can't seem to fix it

[dr461]

I have been through the same situation--my mind won't allow reason in, and prevents insight from becoming the rule, as opposed to my runaway mind. Do you have a good therapist? I have a great one, and that has made a tremendous differences for me, as we do CBT, and visualizations, and that works like a charm in minimizing anxiety.

[CMoore416]

I have a good therapist but we haven't done much yet. When you stopped being anxious about the heart, did you find that they for better? I feel like I just can't get a handle on not being anxious. I desperately want to have fun and be relaxed again. Meds.... Lol

[DaniRae]

Without a doubt, they get better. They bothered me so much I wouldn't get off the couch etc. But when I stopped worrying so much, they aren't as frequent. I still have dreams about them but I get over it quickly. I was so worried I talked to my docs so much they hated seeing my number come up on the phone. I had the lead electrophysiologist at Johns Hopkins Hospital on speed dial lol.....

[Susie]

I can sure relate CM, I feel that way a lot, and I just can NOT talk myself out of it. I mean, just one little "blip" in my throat, and I am crying all day. I have no therapist to talk to, and no drugs as everyone, and I mean, everyone has a reverse reaction for me.

No matter how hard I try to stop worrying, I just can't, my fears run away with me. I sure wish I could calm down.

We are fortunate to have this group, it does help some, I would be lost without it, it is a blessing from God for sure.

[Susie]

Originally Posted by DaniRae

Without a doubt, they get better. They bothered me so much I wouldn't get off the couch etc. But when I stopped worrying so much, they aren't as frequent. I still have dreams about them but I get over it quickly. I was so worried I talked to my docs so much they hated seeing my number come up on the phone. I had the lead electrophysiologist at Johns Hopkins Hospital on speed dial lol.....

You are so fortunate to have doctors you can call. Mine never call back, and very rarely, do they answer the e-mails I send them, I feel so alone and scared. I wish I had a doctor that I could call that would comfort me.

[CMoore416]

My cardiologist isn't helpful at all. Basically just said your fine and get over it (not in those exact words lol) luckily for me primary GP is wonderful and allows me to bother him! Lol he will help be out however I need. I hate how once they start up for me they run rampant all day. That's why I need to try something med wise to see if I can help it. At the very least I will be able to know if it is anxiety or not. I guess what else bothers me is thinking that everyday for the rest of my life will be this way. That can't happen!! Please let it not be like that

[Katie]

I know exactly what you mean about not being able to control yourself. I start trembling horribly and cannot stop when they keep bothering me. It's so incredibly hard to feel like your ok because you just don't feel ok. Try the aloe gel. And have a good cry it really helps and releases adrenaline. The worst thing I think is to stay still because none of the anxiety gets out even if it's just fidgeted out! I'm so sorry your going through this. We are all here for you. Keep writing and we will keep reassuring you.

[CMoore416]

Thanks so much for all the support. I really really appreciate it and its so nice to talk to others who understand. You really cant understand until you have been there. Thanks so so much